Cilice
Should I starve it like a cancer?
Shall I cover it in prayer?
Snap a band upon my wrist each time I feel it near?
Belts worn by St. Hildegard
designed for things like these!
Is it better scars upon my flesh?
A soul brought to it's knees?
Should I feed it like a garden?
Can I make the beauty grow?
Speak the words I long to say
a conscience white as snow?
Caution thrown against the wind,
a braver woman I?
Solitary tears be shed,
or does the other cry?
I go to see my Doctor,
will he tie me to a chair?
Electrodes pulsing through my mind
until I'm barely there?
Can he feed his pills to me,
suppress this ache I feel?
Convince me that what I perceive was never really real.
Will a madness over take me then,
from lips a mumbling a name
listening for the wicked wind to whisper back the same.
It hasn't died by silence
and only grows in song
Thesaurus hasn't found the word,
this thing for which I long.
There's something in the ichor
that just wont seem to dry.
Wisemen say to give it time,
in which all things subside.
And so, divine Confessors,
If to you a name I spake,
would bless me and reprieve my soul
for his beloved sake.
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